Here is what happened at Giant Tiger?
- I smashed my head some time in June. As a result I developed amnesia.
- Then there are lots of fragmentations in my reality.
- In August I ended up in Safe Beds. Alone, regressing and scarred by my realities of CPTSD.
- At some point I endorsed an amazing woman for the Green Party leadership race.
- I signed up for a Webinar to learn Canadian law.
- As of today I had a 2 hour seizure. 2020-08-24 after which I pissed myself.
- I looked death in the eyes and thought about giving up many times. I still want to give up sometimes. I was told from a young age I would die alone. I am starting to believe that every day.
So I am going to go sign off and puke… PEACE OUT!
Believe it or not I didn’t choose to get Autism + concussion. It was an accident largely contributed to by long hair and appeasing my negligent manager who was too hard on me! Jennifer Boutilier pushed me unreasonably hard without reasonable flexibility for my disability. However, some of the readings may wonder why I wanted to work at Giant Tiger?
It is not just as simple as I wanted a paycheck. It was more than that. I liked my experience doing a placement at Giant Tiger earlier in my Youth Job Connection program with Ron Hunter as my Employment counsellor. I also wanted to help out and be essential during the Coronavirus pandemic.
My current shape:
I am no longer in fit mental or physical shape. There is nothing a hospital can really do for me at this time and no magical medication. As a result I need to control my treatment entirely. I don’t need any family feedback whatsoever. That is just a fact of life at this point. Having my mother Kimberly Richardson tell me in the preachy way that I need medication and hospitalization is out of line and irrelevant. I can’t get the help I need in the midst of a Pandemic. If the bitch left her house once in a while she would realize this! Same with Pat Deroy and everyone else. There is no miracle hospital fix. There is only CBD and waiting this Pandemic out. Get over what you think and let me dictate this treatment.
Subject: Bob’s first Hate Crime.
I got an OPP escort to the restaurant because this was an emergency!!! Bob made sure to read me the riot act at 1:15p.m. 2020-07-07 while I was having a seizure. He denied me accessibility seating while I waited for my food as a paying Tim Hortons Customer. Bob hates the disabled and this is this restaurant’s first real hate crime against an autistic person with reflex seizure! I am a Green Socialist and Autistic lives Matter!
Location: 656 Gardiners Rd Unit 19, Kingston, ON K7M 3X9
Message: You almost killed me before I could celebrate getting out of college. How is the safety training going? B****! Life of the destitute grad. Get a job barely related to your field in Ontario Canada and have the job almost kill you. Yep that is Kingston Ontario!
I am in a circumstance where I am enjoying eating fish and chicken right now too much to give it up. That may change in the future but for now, I have chosen to make the moral decision to eat meat so that I can spend less time on meal prep & eating. I believe one of the best ways I can be Utilitarian is to be working and live an active life. I may change dietary choices again if I buy Whey protein. It is all about convenience versus harm analysis. I will always consider diet a question of both Economics as well as the duty to myself.
Get active like me? I use Beachbody on Demand & Simply Yoga. These are great lifestyle decisions. I have decided I will use exercise as a personal care regiment. My goals are mainly to reduce pain, increase joy & feel better about my coordination and physical shape. Again I do have autism & ADHD. So I find a key part of keeping myself physically functional is practice this very necessity self-care. I also help people workout. Mostly 10-minute abs. Or 20 minute Yoga. That is about what I am confident in demonstrating. I have also shared Core yoga.
Moral Honesty: (Beachbody on demand is a Multi-Level Marketing Culture.) I call things as I see them. However, as I call things as I see them. Their guided workouts get results. Talk to a doctor before attempting a new workout routine. However, I feel great. I used Beachbody to get get in shape while working at a gym. I am not above accepting morality and consumption can get a bit dicey. I think it is something we should talk about. However, implementing the lifestyle of vigorous exercise & writing has brought me so much joy.
To: Kingston Ontario
We need to talk and it is a bit of an uncomfortable conversation to be having. I have Autism characterized by behaviors of ADHD. I put my kidneys through a lot when I am jogging 20K because I am too impatient to wait for a bus. I need a place to go to the bathroom for these issues. I know we are trying to prevent disease but I just feel this current climate poses an unfair challenge on my physical health.
I appreciate anything that can be done to make this issue easier for me. Thank you for taking the time to read about my concerns.
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