Chris I am sorry. We were codependent though. That is all. Thank you for your time.

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Purpose of being atheist for 4 years: Make everyone think I am really smart! Read all the cool science books and know lots. Capture people with my charisma, natural charm meanwhile I am still a nasty Wiccan underneath. Become polite and take up 0 space but all the while remaining a passionate Secularist. It was funny to be honest. My ex gave me the tools for this exercise, I didn’t choose them.

Someone who chooses Moral relativism and gets concussed without noticing does not have the capacity to understand things until they practiced them. That is autism. So I practiced being Secular. I went to the groups I talked about atheism and I learned. It is a nice story but it isn’t my Story. I am a Wiccan Merchant with Social Philanthropy features.  You overstepped my boundaries so I stepped in to your shoes to learn your language.  Has your wish come true? ūüôā 

I am sorry I slandered you entirely falsely. I am sorry I was a wolf in sheep’s clothing and I am sorry about the toxic thing that happens when a Marketer listens closely to his highly intelligent and over-opinionated ex. What would I need to know about Psychology as a Marketer? Only the stuff that adds to my own enigma. I didn’t think to protect every opinion and every debate in confidence… Partially because YOU PISSED ME OFF ABOUT MY FAITH!

You need to stay away please & thank you. Wiccan Spiritualists are of the crazy ex-boyfriend breed. To quote Bray Wyatt from WWE “RUN!” 

We were Codependent you aren’t going to get anything nice from me.

Every book is a tool for me. Every notion of the sense of self a myth. My website is organic growth and it has been on a growing cult of personality among the creative. Just don’t come back, please. I wish you good fortune.

A good song

Moral depravity is not enlightenment Quinte West.

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“Don’t you know right from wrong!?” Anyone who was raised by parents who tried to raise them intellectuals has had this conversation multiple times. Some of us in Quinte West even began flipping the switch. Or just leaving Quinte West as a kind of morally deprived place with an out of control capitalism.

“Don’t you know that Capitalism isn’t the sum total of morality?”

I voted Democrat, because racism matters.
I voted Democrat because Racism matters. 

From a historical context. The abandonment of morality and ethics is associated with the worst atrocities in human history. Fredrick Nietzsche preached immorality. His ideas were adopted by the Nazis. It was said that the abandonment of morality is what leads to fascism. As I have stated my love for joining a Secular Pluralist culture is what lead to me dating a fascist. Someone to indulged perverse desires and saw morality as subjective and paradigm. Also, all religions somehow manifested as a mass adapted mental illness. (Beliefs straight out of failed secular states with radical systems.)¬† We have to find a way to trust protective structures like Political beliefs & religions. “Too much order, too much chaos.” Jordan Peterson.

So when another atheist comes up to me. Imagine hypothetically They just switched to atheism. The first thing I try to do with a new atheist is test if they are serious. Talk about issues grounded in reality with them. If they are serious about atheism we will find a way to talk about science, art, or politics. If they aren’t serious about atheism what you will get is nihilism and the abandonment of morality. That is something I will label every time because it is bad and it manifests into destructive & perverse behaviors. I will warn a friend that this is consistent with mental illness and I think they should deal with it.

The solution to chaos & malevolence is to confront it within reason. You want to use concepts of justice within reason and fairness.

Purity Test

 

 

 

 

The shame of dating a religiously intolerant person.

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This is worth writing out because there were red flags everywhere in this relationship. I think I can call it 2 years of being completely stupid. I wish I could run back to myself and say to myself “You are dating a fascist, you idiot!” The belief he ranted about, complete secularism, and removing values of pluralism. That is something a fascist believed. Alright, let’s say I alleged secularism so this post is less controversial and I won’t name the ex on the blog. Know that off the record I am stating it differently because emotionally that is what I perceive.¬†

I am so for dating other atheists but I am sorry I am not for a cultural conversion.¬† I protect Pluralism. I am an atheist but I call myself a Socialist because I am opting not to call myself an atheist because it can seem to be a void to meaning, belief & morality.¬† We as a society shouldn’t want to confuse atheism with nihilism. Atheism should be not believing in god. Nihilism is reducing life, duty and all concepts into meaningless abstracts. Essentially Nihilism is the equivalent of just deciding not to give a F*ck and treat no one with any kindness.

I dated this Secularist idiot who proposed all religion was a mental illness. Please know that is not a belief I had, it was not something I valued and in retrospect, it is something I am ashamed of. I care about diversity, saving the planet, and heightening the quality of life for workers. I don’t value intolerance I don’t care how much of an intellectual you are perceived as, or how wealthy your status is.

(No wonder the Queen’s University students used to hate me! I understand what I did wrong.)

Please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.

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I repeat, “please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.”

I value highly the pursuit of an equal society with values of justice and dignity with cultural plurality I have read books by Democrats, Socialists, Utilitarians. I have learned about the origins of North American Social Reform culture out of New Harmony Indiana. I have praised Tommy Douglas for his work on human rights and the creation of Socialized healthcare. There is a real cultural collective of literature, historical figures, and Philosophical/Economic readings.

When you do what this person did? 

Reducing the sum of morality & a values-based conversation with real intellectual values in to “When I took acid I realized what I already knew, we’re all just creatures of earthborn under the sky and will die under the sky.”I lost a great deal of respect for this person. Of all the profound conversations I would hope to have with a fellow intellectual and fellow working-class person.¬† This was not in line with those types of conversations I would hope to be having. Doy I am an atheist too! I just still believe in deterministic¬† principles for guiding one’s actions.

Telling it like it is 

You can be an atheist and then still be a nihilist and know that I will call that out as a bad thing. Atheism is not the sum total value of our individual philosophies. If you don’t have the meaning you find it through reading and deep introspection. As a friend, you became someone I view as someone who gets lost in sloppy poorly thought out meaningless relationships with men who have drug issues.

As a person, you have become paranoid (obviously these drugs don’t agree with you and are probably illegal. I am not a police officer) As a student you’ve been reduced to nothing but a pointless party person who won’t buckle down & focus. Acid & LSD was considered a threat to cultural sanity for a reason. People during use feel like they have been enlightened. People from every faith and atheism thing they get it all figured out just from an intense trip! You haven’t woke my friends.

Acid Reader

LSD¬†influences serotonin receptors in the¬†brain. Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that plays a role in every part of your body, from your mood and emotions to your motor skills and body temperature. According to a 2016 study,¬†LSD¬†also causes changes in the¬†brain’s blood flow and electrical activity.” Google¬†

( This just in you are playing dangerous games with your mental health by taking acid and not consulting a physician about medicinal options or even negative health effects.)

Why I think her ex left her after 4 years based on an outsider observation? I think he lost respect for her. First of all, she is an atheist like me but let us face facts that on its own is a bleak philosophy. She was materialistic. From the prior conversations, she stated she didn’t believe his passion for world history would translate into a wealth payable skill. She was passionless and filled with deeply flawed values that go beyond practical and into bleak. The tide of her impulses just steer her to prospects of marrying for wealth, pushing desperately non-consensual commitment & her unaddressed preference for interdependence in her social culture means she is miserable by the way she steers herself. (Quite frankly I am comfortable labeling someone a gold digger in the face of the belligerent indifference to pursuits of passion in relation to education.)

Friendship Summary: This relationship was exhausting and I honestly fear her inability to grow will surpass my ability to forgive our culture clash. As a gay man & Socialist, I value being a confidant to many friends who feel like my sisters. As an autistic person who became higher functioning, I scoff at her lacking determinism to become smarter, her lacking passion for her work & inability to see why she might be offputting to men who crave emotional connections. She is one of the least self-actualized people I have ever met. She is reducing herself to a party girl wearing an “intellectual” mask. She is heartless wearing a mask of compassion & lastly she is passionless posing as a passionate person the result is total and completely fraudulent behavior, even if not a case of legal misrepresentation. You felt ripped off as a friend hoping for a deeper interpersonal relationship.

“I feel exhausted by this but it was worth journalling.”