Legal Dictation: This is a Interpersonal and legal argument my family asked me not to argue. That is full disclosure.
I consider the Deroy, McGraw and Hill family to be mental health regressive. Up to and including practices of Rape culture. If they were not. Why didn’t someone give me an Autism book? The answer is Gay bash & the answer is they don’t trust me. I am returning that favor.
As a result. This is an order. If these families submit someone for assessment without consent they are hiding traumatic abuse for their purposes of self-protection and are to be charged with mental health abuse & assault.
Seek help guys! I am not screwing around anymore!
Everyone except Kaylib Drury needs help. Kaylib Drury is the most honest person I know. For all intensive purposes. If Kaylib asked me to, I would own up to abusing them during a Brain Injury because that is how much I love them. To Tracy Carpenter, you outed a Legal God Complex which is not great but I was told I should be grateful because by outing it I won. It gives me back my full Child Abuse Privileges’ that I haven’t used since I was 17. You were unaware that I was the family’s legal ticking time bomb for mental health reform. SURPRISE MOTHER F*****! I am an Intersex ticking time bomb!
Ashton De Roy.
Here is my related research to prove this argument:
Rudan, C. (n.d.). Addiction Counsellor. Ex boyfriend and talented therapist.
Herbert, D., & Weintraub, K. (2012). The Autism Revolution (934088603 731188014 D. Stradling, Trans.). New York, NY: Random House Audio. Self-purchased for the purposes of Autism Aware after June 8th 2020 post Autism + Concussion .
I was molested – I was molested by my ex step brother & Second cousin Shane Fraiser. Dad didn’t understand by Marrying my mom’s Cousin of a hick family that he automatically was committing abuse.
I was obstructed from obtaining my education – I still found a way.
I was alienated – I wasn’t allowed to have Special Ed friends or overnight guests ever. I grew up constantly lonely. I had a best friend in the Chess club that I wanted to be closer to but I couldn’t because I didn’t want them to be called a “Retard” at my house.
I was subjected to Psychosocial Abuse – Melissa Deroy has BiPolar neurosis and Psychosis. Which put me at odds with constant abuse.
I was put in the middle of a divorce feud I did not care about
Sometimes I can’t tell the difference between love & abuse… All I have ever wanted was just to be fed, socialized and cared for. That is not what I got. Instead I got isolation and a creative writing journal.
It is time to admit something. I don’t think I can work after the Pandemic. As a result of sitting in Safe Beds having Seizure every night since I got here. I am realizing that working is no longer in the cards for me.
Since the Pandemic I have been denied my Human Rights. I have been denied access to healthcare, I have been denied access to affordable housing and I have been denied the basic human compassion one needs to survive. I am mentally scarred & physically worn out. I don’t see any circumstances where I can return to regular work.
To conclude, I guess my Dad is getting what he wants. I am admitting now from this point forward I am too disabled to work. I can’t control my Seizures, I can’t control my pain and I can’t control my temperament anymore. You win Randy Deroy. Your kids are officially all going handicapped.
If you look in the picture below you will see part of a generation destroyed. I am not kidding!
It is as if my family thinks the entire generation I am in should just quit and live on disability. Which is objectively insane on the face of it!
I have been autism Aware since grade school. Even I could tell back then! Social assistance is no way to live…
Three things they told me to do?
“Don’t worry about going to High School. Just charge your childhood molester.” This was something Mom wanted. Well I don’t want to charge anyone because then people will think I am just some Autistic person who randomly cries “Rape”. Something I demonstrated as Satire with Kaylib Drury.
“Quit working and go on Disability.” Dad said this. I don’t want to quit working… I am in pain & if I quit working I will never have any money for marijuana. I will just live in a constant struggle.
“Just Vote Conservative!” I don’t vote Conservative. I am queer and Autistic. I also saw the Harper Administration fight against gay marriage and marijuana legalization. I am going to go ahead and say no.
Listen the idea that 3/4 kids end up on disability isn’t good. It shouldn’t be celebrated. You are maiming your kids and walking away….
The only good thing about this experience is… I don’t have to ever worry about this happening again.
This is on the record now. I was put in Safe Beds against my will. That is deliberately how I recorded this event.
Why did I do this? I do not want to end up in long term care. Like my great aunt Barb I will fight it until the day I die. I will just not be as nice about it. I intend to be an *** !
Oh the photo above with Ashley & Matt was taken at Canada’s Wonderland. Where Matt wondered? “Why doesn’t Ashton Deroy want to use a disabled pass?” I just don’t Matt Clarke. I successfully integrated. You are asking me “Why don’t you want to opt to regress?” I just don’t.
Okay so guess who was empowered by me seeking mental health treatment when I explicitly didn’t ask for it? It was not me the sexual assault victim who bravely moved on. It was not me the victim of amnesia who can’t count on their family. It was my ex, it was my family and it was my old job.
In this essay I am going to outline the stuff I don’t want to talk about on a usual basis. This way people can understand that mental health is not a 1 size fits all solution. In fact if you look in to my record at Quinte Health where I see a counsellor usually, it actually wasn’t supposed to be the solution at all. Why wasn’t this the solution?
Do you like yourself as you are? No, what has given me the reason to like myself as I am? The fact that I am smart. Yet my Dad still agreed to have me verify my sexual assault in his separation. The fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has taken control or insulted my mental health. Yet I just keep hoping to fall in love. Yep I am the damaged one. Barely functioning 5 ft 9 rape victim Ashton Deroy takes the blame again. I might of scared people including family & even Kaylib Drury. I will take full blame for that. Do they take full blame for what they do? The fact that there is no Multiculturalism in our family so I am sad. The fact that I am a target for argumentation and debate. Or the fact that I require help from family that I do not receive.
Should people be relatively grateful to have me in their lives? This is what makes mental health such a dumb and worthless occupational field. People either demonstrate they appreciate having you around. Or they do what Liam Hennessy did the entire time I dated him and gaslight me, calling me crazy and screwed up! I was actually approached by Liam Hennessy and asked to charge a person he claimed sexually assaulted him. Even though I never had that same experience.
If I didn’t know me? I’d think I was okay. No I wouldn’t think I am okay. I am a gay bash victim, a victim of mental manipulations and a rape victim. If I didn’t know me… I would see me behaving how I do and according to popular opinions. I would think I was and I quote “Still fucked up!” Liam Hennessy in regards to special needs people. (By the way I have never called Liam Hennessy out for abusing me. The rush is exhilarating!”)
Growing up was I given the feeling that I properly deserve to exist? Does your Step brother Shane Fraiser repeating the phrases “Sped!” , “Retard.” & “Kill yourself” count? Sarcasm (Entertainment for stupid people) >> If so I was totally given the right to exist.
The only idea I would agree to traumatic anxiety wise. After gay bash, after rape and after manipulative torture. I need hugs but they aren’t going to be found anymore because Kaylib Drury left and he was the only person I wanted them from. I need to enjoy cake with my friends… Even though I have brutally transitioned by routine so many times I don’t know who they are anymore. I want to enjoy arts & culture with Ashley… I don’t believe in a better future because I have never been shown properly the possibility of one. The proof is in how I got mental help. I was dumped and had all my stuff moved to the Napanee Police. I had seizures in the rain yesterday and still wanted to talk to Kaylib Drury because I missed him.
I get my passive aggressiveness tested even though I said not to because if aggressiveness is triggered I won’t be able to stop it. So I try to be passive and nice hoping that someone will take that for what it is. The fact that I want to learn, love & be cared for. However, I keep getting told somehow… Some way!!! The answer is going to be in seeking psychological help. I am happy to be where I am because I no longer trust the people I am supposed to love.
I have no culture anymore… I have no home… I have no lighter… I have no weed… Why do you think I would choose this help willingly? I have nothing to go back to when I am done. Furthermore I am of the opinion that ODSP is a crutch for families who don’t want to better their financial wellbeing and force independence on self-identified interdependent autistic people with poor self-regulation. This isn’t the help I need. It is the help being forced on me. That is what my mental health professionals told me a long time ago when I self-submitted complex trauma .
It is not enough to be god. I need to establish a following. I need people to know the beauties of Wiccan Communism! I need people to know right from wrong by the Mystical dictator’s terms. I will be working on these platforms today.
Autism Revolution has been an incredible audiobook. So much so I don’t feel right using the domain name anymore. People need to know about this audiobook. Which is why? I sent a paperback to my autistic Step brother.
Purpose: To establish our own unique Graphic Design brand in Greater Napanee Ontario.
Outcome: We are operating an aggressive Social media campaign to protest issues, fix local and franchise businesses. As well as making the community aware of the problems currently facing us.