I am the Autistic Ostrich… Here is what is wrong with me!
Okay so guess who was empowered by me seeking mental health treatment when I explicitly didn’t ask for it? It was not me the sexual assault victim who bravely moved on. It was not me the victim of amnesia who can’t count on their family. It was my ex, it was my family and it was my old job.
In this essay I am going to outline the stuff I don’t want to talk about on a usual basis. This way people can understand that mental health is not a 1 size fits all solution. In fact if you look in to my record at Quinte Health where I see a counsellor usually, it actually wasn’t supposed to be the solution at all. Why wasn’t this the solution?
- Do you like yourself as you are? No, what has given me the reason to like myself as I am? The fact that I am smart. Yet my Dad still agreed to have me verify my sexual assault in his separation. The fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has taken control or insulted my mental health. Yet I just keep hoping to fall in love. Yep I am the damaged one. Barely functioning 5 ft 9 rape victim Ashton Deroy takes the blame again. I might of scared people including family & even Kaylib Drury. I will take full blame for that. Do they take full blame for what they do? The fact that there is no Multiculturalism in our family so I am sad. The fact that I am a target for argumentation and debate. Or the fact that I require help from family that I do not receive.
- Should people be relatively grateful to have me in their lives? This is what makes mental health such a dumb and worthless occupational field. People either demonstrate they appreciate having you around. Or they do what Liam Hennessy did the entire time I dated him and gaslight me, calling me crazy and screwed up! I was actually approached by Liam Hennessy and asked to charge a person he claimed sexually assaulted him. Even though I never had that same experience.
- This is me yesterday lost in my own mind and struggling to get family help in the rain.
- If I didn’t know me? I’d think I was okay. No I wouldn’t think I am okay. I am a gay bash victim, a victim of mental manipulations and a rape victim. If I didn’t know me… I would see me behaving how I do and according to popular opinions. I would think I was and I quote “Still fucked up!” Liam Hennessy in regards to special needs people. (By the way I have never called Liam Hennessy out for abusing me. The rush is exhilarating!”)
- Growing up was I given the feeling that I properly deserve to exist? Does your Step brother Shane Fraiser repeating the phrases “Sped!” , “Retard.” & “Kill yourself” count? Sarcasm (Entertainment for stupid people) >> If so I was totally given the right to exist.
The only idea I would agree to traumatic anxiety wise. After gay bash, after rape and after manipulative torture. I need hugs but they aren’t going to be found anymore because Kaylib Drury left and he was the only person I wanted them from. I need to enjoy cake with my friends… Even though I have brutally transitioned by routine so many times I don’t know who they are anymore. I want to enjoy arts & culture with Ashley… I don’t believe in a better future because I have never been shown properly the possibility of one. The proof is in how I got mental help. I was dumped and had all my stuff moved to the Napanee Police. I had seizures in the rain yesterday and still wanted to talk to Kaylib Drury because I missed him.
I get my passive aggressiveness tested even though I said not to because if aggressiveness is triggered I won’t be able to stop it. So I try to be passive and nice hoping that someone will take that for what it is. The fact that I want to learn, love & be cared for. However, I keep getting told somehow… Some way!!! The answer is going to be in seeking psychological help. I am happy to be where I am because I no longer trust the people I am supposed to love.
I have no culture anymore… I have no home… I have no lighter… I have no weed… Why do you think I would choose this help willingly? I have nothing to go back to when I am done. Furthermore I am of the opinion that ODSP is a crutch for families who don’t want to better their financial wellbeing and force independence on self-identified interdependent autistic people with poor self-regulation. This isn’t the help I need. It is the help being forced on me. That is what my mental health professionals told me a long time ago when I self-submitted complex trauma .
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This shouldn’t be a surprise for anyone but I do have issues with emotions. That being said I think Autistic people can be a little too over sensitive and that doesn’t work either. For example, Matthew-Clarke.ca Matt has a pattern of irrational behavior such as drunk driving and then resorts to defensive sensitivity. This is actually harmful and interferes with their ability to develop life skills. I do not tolerate this and neither will the Autism Revolution!
Experiment: For the interest of transparency I did train this kid on dealing with difficult customers. Whether they get an A+ or an F it is up to them.
Sensitivity wise: I failed, I really did. F – I am okay with that. I am a customer so let’s do some business!
Quote from seller: “I’m really sorry you were unhappy. You already have the knowledge of the topic that I would normally help with, so I tried to help you with accessibility in other ways. There isn’t really anything negative to say about your content or your idea so there wasn’t much for me to comment on, which is a good sign that you know what you’re doing. I assure you that I do a thorough and thoughtful job when given clear instructions and a goal, but in this case I did the best I could. Thanks.” Keep in mind this is a deliberate stress test that I have paid the participant for.
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2020-07-17 – We decided to turn this post in to satire. I have my Jen account pretending to be drunk. Today the kid literally pretended to be suicidal to get out of the agreement. Listen, at the end of the day I think you are my competitor. Intention: I am clogging your business to make sure we don’t compete. 6133923561 Quinte West OPP called at 10:51 AM on 07-25-2020 . Note: We still suspect this account is distributing copyrighted works however we have been asked to leave them alone. We request someone else pick up this study from here.
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I told Alana Skye once. “If you share your tricks I will share mine.” Well I think it is time to share what is a 12 step plan to access highly difficult to receive healthcare. Let’s see what I did?
Step 1 – Admit to yourself you have autism. I did this at 10 years old. Then you must do your own research. As our healthcare systems are quite unprepared at all times.
Step 2 – Get a Communications diploma. So that you can contact family in case of emergency with heightened language skills.
Step 4 – Pace yourself. You have ADHD and you tend to go too fast and drive your blood pressure through the roof. Ice water helps with this according to the hospitals.
Step 5 – Go to Business School so that you can learn to manage your own personal finances.
Step 6 – Follow Matt’s plan and get trained in Security.
Step 7 – Finally start selling Horoscopes and fortune telling services. (You now know math)
Step 8 – Train those you love to bring you CBD.
Step 9 – Figure out who the smart people are. An Uncle and a cousin have both helped me with weed. Dad brought me pre-rolls but he still doesn’t understand how to speed up recovery properly.
Step 9 – Admit managing seizures alone and going to the hospital alone is driving you crazy then stop… “I don’t deserve to have to self-admit to the hospital.” If no one goes with me then I will stop going. This is why? I knew KGH would put me in the psychiatric unit. That is why? I screamed at them for putting me in under the mental health act. Also KGH pretty much made you self diagnose during June 16-June 17 so they were no help...I will no longer go to the hospital alone!
Step 10 – Tell your family you are done with the filter and ready to learn more practical Moralities.
Step 11 – Fall in love.
Step 12 – Tell my love everything about me.
Lastly, admit to yourself your family is bad at taking care of you. Then… move on from them in the sense where you become self-relying. This burn out isn’t like any other burn out I have had before. I did the math, I hacked the game and I have better things to do than wait for my family to understand my issues! I tell fortunes, click here.
Also my Facebook page is not a sub-resume. My Cousin Chris is a career counselor. I am a content creator. There is a big difference, if I want ratings? Then I have to be actionable and persistent. Don’t edit my content as family.
What wasn’t in the plan?
- A rapist second cousin named Shane.
- Step siblings who need all of my Family’s attention
- Being ignored or confused during the concussion
- Getting injured at Giant Tiger!
- Kyle giving me a concussion while playing wrestling.
My family hardly cares about me. If you do care then smoke CBD with me sometime and watch how much easier my mood gets…. My CBD needs to be distributed immediately after a seizure. The longer you wait the more medicine I need. 5 grams over 3 days no struggle and I will be fine.
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Intention: Virgo with autistic features Complete moral authority and intense self-honesty time. I am pretty sure not adhering to Utilitarian Logic and PSISA training resulted in the lead to a collapsing moral character. Avoid Nihilismfor the sake of evil & use substances to enhance practice not weaken it. This is savage and barbarism
Message: Don’t go in the shop…
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If I am going to get ahead I am going to need my family to come with me into being more Progressive and being more cultured. Time to come clean… “I am not a Socialist, not anymore. I am a theoretical Business Democrat. Expansion, trade and free market economies. With a healthy mix of Social systems. This at Most is Labour Socialism. Not Marxism. Although I understand the merit of Democracy at Work. I had to do my own research.
This website will self-destruct september 8th 2020. As per Wiccan traditions of illusions as well as fufils a purpose of Index information without being viewable by the reader unless they are an investigative mind. I need to claim Moral authority over these texts as they contain half hazard justice strategies that poor use of in the future might result in a undue Harship due to a mental illness lawsuit.
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