Why I was taught a Autism Legal God Complex?

It goes without saying I respect Transgender lives. Despite the fact I have screwed with Transgender people relentlessly! LOL

I am not your average bully because I am not a bully. I teach self-defense. I am a God Complex.

When did this start?

I was actually given my God Complex pretty close to my Autism Diagnosis. Related to the fact I have an intersex hormonal disorder (too much testosterone, so stop pissing me off.) & I have have had so many behavioral modifications I have no practical sense of

I have tried to tell people for a long time now. I am going to do what I want to do.

This does not mean I have the right to harm anyone. However, if you are asking if I have the right to be a prick? Yes I absolutely do.

I am from a family that ignores the fact I am supposed to take specific actions to avoid Autism Seizures and they therefore replace it with their own emotional burdens and concerns.

I have been a victim of OCD Abuse and I am not nice about this. So outing your OCD to me is a good way to be challenged. The fact of the matter is that OCD is a condition that worsens under their ideal circumstances. Not being challenged properly made my mother worse at taking care of me & my brother. It made Chris stop an Autism Aware at 22 because he saw me immediately declaring my God Complex & it made Kaylib uncomfortable because they claimed they didn’t feel like equals. Sorry Kaylib I don’t have equals in that manner. We have not had the pursuit of creative collaboration or intellectual collaboration and we are queer. This means we have done nothing to achieve equal status.

If I declare my autism publicly which I think I should… I have to declare the God Complex with it. It is a declaration that I have to do whatever it takes to save my life. It is also is a declaration of out of control behaviors that I was taught to regulate with counselling when I choose. Not when someone else chooses.

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To: Kaylib Drury

When someone declares themselves to be God? IT MEANS STOP CONTROLLING THEM!

Well I am at it. Grandma Pat, Randy & Tracy…

You can’t control a God Complex and it will get ugly if you try.

Now here is the last thing… I have been manipulated for so long I have now developed the ability to pull strings behind the scenes to screw with people pissing me off.

I do not intend to stop.

You are trying to take someone in the practice of Self-Worship and make them in to a sensible & practical person. Let me very clear, I will get high in your church like I did to Rosie. I will spit on your traditional values, I will mock the idea that my family is mentally healthy & I will not be swear to a No Cops pact with anyone.

Aunt Barb & Leah has proven Troy is unsafe. Matthew Clarke has been given his Autism Aware for participating in family manipulations. I have also warned other family members I can order them to have psychological assessments with an attorney. That is a Child Abuse & Special Ed privilege.

To: Family

Sorry Papa Dick wasn’t allowed around me. You kind of dropped the ball on Shane Fraiser Molesting me & giving me a concussion though. I think the idea is to keep psychosocial hazards away. I have talked to Community Justice Students at Loyalist College and this is not an unreasonable demand.

(I guarantee I followed through on that with Melissa & her son.)

About not being accommodated… If this continues I am dead or heading to a place of unhealthy decay. This last concussion was particularly dangerous. I had seizures everyday from August to the end of my admission at Safe Beds and I was hospitalized twice.

I know about the Autism Aware Trigger game. I am producing an Affidavit in the near future to ensure if this is done to another kid you guys are charged. I can admit to broad attention seeking behaviors in regards to Tanya, Tina in regards to Terry. However, If you don’t tell me the argument to make… I will make the destructive argument. Instead of alienation that leads to a Cyber Security Information leak. Don’t be so willing to press the Block button. It is not a magick button from a Legal Dictation wielding psychopath. Thank you Seneca College Marketing class, Greenwich Associates and Bill 159! 😀

I Ashton Deroy was just given this skill! Legal Dictation Weeeeeeeeeeee! I know why they were worried about it being traced back to them at Seneca College. This was a big pain in the A** for my family, the police & etc. I think it was hilarious. 😀 Sometimes people want to play who abused the Autistic? I will gladly share this. Shane Fraiser by molestation, My parents through unlawful manipulation & New Entry: Matthew Clarke through unchecked mental illness.

I am the Autistic Ostrich

I am the Autistic Ostrich… Here is what is wrong with me!

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Okay so guess who was empowered by me seeking mental health treatment when I explicitly didn’t ask for it? It was not me the sexual assault victim who bravely moved on. It was not me the victim of amnesia who can’t count on their family. It was my ex, it was my family and it was my old job.

In this essay I am going to outline the stuff I don’t want to talk about on a usual basis. This way people can understand that mental health is not a 1 size fits all solution. In fact if you look in to my record at Quinte Health where I see a counsellor usually, it actually wasn’t supposed to be the solution at all. Why wasn’t this the solution?

Self-Esteem Questionaire:

  1. Do you like yourself as you are? No, what has given me the reason to like myself as I am? The fact that I am smart. Yet my Dad still agreed to have me verify my sexual assault in his separation. The fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has taken control or insulted my mental health. Yet I just keep hoping to fall in love. Yep I am the damaged one. Barely functioning 5 ft 9 rape victim Ashton Deroy takes the blame again. I might of scared people including family & even Kaylib Drury. I will take full blame for that. Do they take full blame for what they do? The fact that there is no Multiculturalism in our family so I am sad. The fact that I am a target for argumentation and debate. Or the fact that I require help from family that I do not receive.
  2. Should people be relatively grateful to have me in their lives? This is what makes mental health such a dumb and worthless occupational field. People either demonstrate they appreciate having you around. Or they do what Liam Hennessy did the entire time I dated him and gaslight me, calling me crazy and screwed up! I was actually approached by Liam Hennessy and asked to charge a person he claimed sexually assaulted him. Even though I never had that same experience.
  3. This is me yesterday lost in my own mind and struggling to get family help in the rain.
  4. If I didn’t know me? I’d think I was okay. No I wouldn’t think I am okay. I am a gay bash victim, a victim of mental manipulations and a rape victim. If I didn’t know me… I would see me behaving how I do and according to popular opinions. I would think I was and I quote “Still fucked up!” Liam Hennessy in regards to special needs people. (By the way I have never called Liam Hennessy out for abusing me. The rush is exhilarating!”)
  5. Growing up was I given the feeling that I properly deserve to exist? Does your Step brother Shane Fraiser repeating the phrases “Sped!” , “Retard.” & “Kill yourself” count? Sarcasm (Entertainment for stupid people) >> If so I was totally given the right to exist.
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The only idea I would agree to traumatic anxiety wise. After gay bash, after rape and after manipulative torture. I need hugs but they aren’t going to be found anymore because Kaylib Drury left and he was the only person I wanted them from. I need to enjoy cake with my friends… Even though I have brutally transitioned by routine so many times I don’t know who they are anymore. I want to enjoy arts & culture with Ashley…  I don’t believe in a better future because I have never been shown properly the possibility of one.  The proof is in how I got mental help. I was dumped and had all my stuff moved to the Napanee Police. I had seizures in the rain yesterday and still wanted to talk to Kaylib Drury because I missed him.

I get my passive aggressiveness tested even though I said not to because if aggressiveness is triggered I won’t be able to stop it. So I try to be passive and nice hoping that someone will take that for what it is. The fact that I want to learn, love & be cared for. However, I keep getting told somehow… Some way!!! The answer is going to be in seeking psychological help. I am happy to be where I am because I no longer trust the people I am supposed to love.

I have no culture anymore… I have no home… I have no lighter… I have no weed… Why do you think I would choose this help willingly? I have nothing to go back to when I am done. Furthermore I am of the opinion that ODSP is a crutch for families who don’t want to better their financial wellbeing and force independence on self-identified interdependent autistic people with poor self-regulation. This isn’t the help I need. It is the help being forced on me. That is what my mental health professionals told me a long time ago when I self-submitted complex trauma .

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Honest relationships

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I have had honest friendships. This more so refers to my first honest romantic relationship.  Now, something readers should know about Kaylib. He is also too smart to lie to. I mean genuinely he has already figured out what makes up my background, mental health, and Philosophical views. He has also seen me do prank style communication stunts so he can tell when I am lying. It is fine though because honesty has actually enhanced this relationship. It worked out for me.

Honest

I am going to surprise my readers and say something controversial. Not every two people should opt for an honest relationship, but I did. However, for the opposite Take my Victoria address experience for example. There are 2 people that need to lie nicely to each other…. If they don’t… They might end up hating each other enough to love each other, enough to hate each other. What I mean is? (They will do a hate hookup.) Referring to the guy who stalked me outside the bathroom and the girl who thought I knocked someone up. They are a match made in hell…. (Codependent) Even if they don’t bang it out. I don’t care… It is fun to creep myself out though. If Jamie Macari is in charge still at 544 Victoria st.  just don’t rent there. Think of him as “pain in the *** Jesus” with all the all-mighty Tumeric!

What are the keys to honest relationships?

  • Openness – I mean real openness. Not open to charging at someone with a full head of anger.
  • Readiness – Some people don’t know openness is going to expose you to someone else’s flaws. Get ready, because we are human beings in a nihilistic downward world. So open your ears. Get ready to hear some messed up stuff.
  • Space – Especially if you live together. Give each other space and with that time as well. Process your thoughts about the person you know. Decide if you are freaked out or not… Again though everyone has weird stuff like relatives with poor boundaries, toxic abusive family cultures we got to end or maybe you have been living on a downward track since 19. Either way, we find a through it, if we are actually dedicated to honesty. If we judge someone and toss them out every time we get honesty. Then we don’t deserve love, to begin with. Space is good, repetitive romantic alienation is bad.

You know what will help you to prepare for honesty? Kill your optimism with negativity. Break your entitlement by being poor. Suspend the assumption that everyone has had the privilege of a happy childhood. It is fewer and farther in between these days! Egalitarian relationships are messy, but they are also the best kind of relationship there is. My boyfriend is Kaylib, I visit him down towards the Rez. I love how his brain works. I genuinely think he is the most interesting person. He also bugs me at times but it is part of us. ❤ 

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3 reasons I love Green Grass Oasis

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Ashton Deroy Writes: I love Tyendinaga Cannabis. I think yesterday on Instagram I may have triggered people who think, “He hates First Nations cannabis. He is an a**.” No, I am being honest and upfront with the current state of the legally defined illegal cannabis market. The honesty is at the end of the day is my social tribe needs to be in constant communication with each other to make sure cannabis is safe, accessible & we all agree on where we spend our money. That is it, I am not big enough to commit Libel which then amounts damage to Legacy 420. I am not the moral police! Check out the marijuana black list

Now I love Green Grass Oasis. I truly believe they are one of the kindest and fairest dispensaries in Tyendinaga. What do I love about this unlicensed dispensary? Here are 3 things I really love about Green Grass Oasis

  1. Friendly staff– They have a friendly & knowledgeable staff who can answer your questions on products.
  2. Never been short – We have never been shorted at Green Grass Oasis. There is a reputation of certain locations on the Res shorting people when they buy something like an ounce. 
  3. Close to but not quite medical quality – I am not going to pretend Res weed comes close to the quality of medical marijuana. Oasis comes pretty close though. However they don’t give you percentage estimates on your containers, I don’t think anything is scientifically verified with their strains & you don’t really know much about how they ensure they grow safe cannabis for your consumption. However great quality so far. Top shelf cannabis is amazing & for lower shelf items you get what you pay for which is not all bad either. 

Do not get me wrong. I sometimes buy legal Cannabis from OCS and Aphria. However, I am still a supporter of the illegal market. We just have to be open and honest about what the illegal market is like. If you are a friend or a family member in my tribe you have to tell people when you suspect foul play at illegal dispensaries. 

If you work with Legacy 420. Contact me @ Ashtonderoy@gmail.com . I have just heard some really evil things from people in regards to Legacy 420 hence why we keep you on the Black List. Prove me wrong! Just prove me wrong and do some good. I also read the release on habitat for humanity. However, the accusations I heard were that the operation was gang owned  & that you watered down CBD products. As a person with autism, I need places to grab reliable CBD. 


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Ashton Deroy is an LGBTQ Liberal with strong Libertarian convictions for Cannabis consumption in Ontario. Ashton Deroy first discovered the beautiful Tyendinaga’s marijuana scene 2018. Prior to that Ashton Deroy was a medical cannabis user in North York Canada. Ashton Deroy treats autism with CBD products and their sleep disorder with THC heavy indicas. 

Ashton Deroy maintains while there is a place for the illegal market. There is to a place for the legal market. Ashton Deroy has gone on record saying that he has lost friends to tainted Cannabis.

\”The legal cannabis shops will clean up Belleville Ontario & drive dangerous standalone drug dealers out of the pot business. That is the beauty of these shops.” Ashton Deroy

Check out my post on why I gave up the bong.