Because it is weed you denied me my brain medicine. Because it is weed you think it is a non-necessity item. Because it is weed you think I am making up these fits. Because it is weed you denied me my health.
I got Autism + ADHD + Concussion June 8th 2020. Because it was weed I was denied the help I needed. Not wanted help! The needed help so that I didn’t kill my entire personality. I can’t help this now, that identity I was prior to the episode is now dead. Thank you for doing this. I now have to re-create. I am thinking of something a bit more Millennial oriented for my future.
CBD is medicine! I am tired of having this fight. I don’t want an aspirin, an Advil or any other pill. I don’t want THC, I don’t want Morphine or Ativan. I want CBD only! I shouldn’t have to fight for it. I don’t want fix the relationships I broke this time. I just want to move on.
The New Ashton Deroy , restarting as a Witch again.
Motor impairment, such as difficulty walking, tremor, loss of muscle movement, weakness or rigidity – Yes
Trouble swallowing (dysphagia) – Yes
Vision and focusing problems – Yes
Trouble with sense of smell (olfactory abnormalities) – Yes off and on.
Dementia – I keep losing things and buying repeat items.
Suicidal Ideations and Actions
The prevalence of suicidal thoughts.” Concussion and Autism: A Dangerous Mix Autism Citizen.
To make things worse. I feel I have a toxic family.
How I want to be remembered? I want to be remembered for calling people out on their shit. I want to be belligerent, rude and Honest beyond comprehension. My siblings Except with Kaylib. With Kaylib I want him to remember me as Empathetic, sweet and Loving. I want to try and leave him something should this be my last concussion. I am not suicidal… Not that anyone is Suicide Prevention trained.
What I will be doing: Playing games, smoking pot, CBD oil and etc. I will also be going to medical appointments, dealing with my psychotic siblings and trying to be with my friends. Even though they don’t get me lately. I will try it.
Last advice from me as a blogger: Don’t wait like I did. Don’t wait until you are sick to tell your addict brother he a sociopath. Don’t wait until you are sick to tell your sister you resent her getting you kicked out. Don’t wait to tell your Step mom to buzz off with her understanding of your mental health. Don’t wait to tell your Military Aunt you don’t give a shit what her title is she can go Fuck herself for how she treats you. Take it from me… I compromised so much that I don’t even like most of my family anymore.