Ashton Deroy writes: Imagine a place with 5 bedrooms rooms, 1 living room, 1 kitchen and 1 bathroom. Now imagine living there with 3 other full time tenants and also 2 possible guests for an Air B&B or 1 other part time tenant. Now imagine the 2 months of headaches that follows. It is an environment of rotating bodies, too much closeness & the flashing thought of “Hey who is that random person?”
To perceive a place such as this is to perceive a very fast approaching headache. It is establishing a goal for 3 people who are complete strangers to also live in a harmony of arbitrary rules & regulations. Needless to say what ever Jango Property Management is trying to do. It is psychotically unstable with such a small shared communal living environment.
Lets face it all that plus the small space, lack of appropriate boundaries & the fact truth be told the 3 full time tenants had huge personalities was a track guaranteed for disaster. In fact you could easily write a book filled with conflicts to fill it. Like that book this house was filled with disaster scenarios. We had constant conflict. Also an entire lack of normalcy. There is something inherently about the top description paragraph I used that seems either like it is all part of some psychotic math question or a plan for dystopic future communal homes.
Facts are facts. Not everyone in the home needs a social life. However some people really should get them. Even if it means exhausting the effects & negative symptoms of over night guests. It took a little bit realize that there were only two possible reasons for a home to act under social contracts in this manner. This is either some kind of religious cult house. Or there are some serious lacking interpersonal Social Skills in this house that prevent people from forming adult interpersonal relationships. As usual the answer was a bit of both.
To people who read this blog… I am getting kind of tired of being exposed to uncivilized types who don’t live by a kindness first policy. They just expect people to help in an Air B&B without any special access to utility of the home. Just an implied expectation of being put to work for someone else’s interests. Whatever this is? It must be a plan to worsen the exploitation existing comfortably in Capitalism already. Or in other words?
A literal scam. Yep I compromised on the fact I am not supposed to live in a place that bans me from having overnight guests if I pay rent. (This is why I look at places with my brother from now on.) The idea is to pay rent and have some independence. Not to pay rent and live romantically abstinent!
What happened to me? From living in a cool stoner house in Belleville Ontario with actual cool people. To living in a Communal Air B&B on a street where human beings will literally sometimes take shits on. Yes I am saying this set up is dirty, gross & weird is simply an understatement. Also I think it is also driven me crazy renting the room across from this…
Not ruling this out: The construction project across the road has been waking me up at the crack of dawn for quite some time. I will say a lot of my time in this place has made me question if my sanity is slipping between my fingers. Lets just bare in mind most days I wake up to bad dreams of chainsaws masquerading as the construction noises across the road. There is a very real possibility that this has played a huge role in my loss of sanity at this address. Just saying, do not rule it out!
Positive notes to self for the way out and moving forward. I quit smoking tobacco again although it seems like a good way to tell if I am in my personal hell to an outsider is for them to just see me with a cigarette. If Ashton Deroy is holding a tobacco cigarette you can literally assume I am saying, “Fuck it I’d rather be dead.” When have I ever hidden that? What am I afraid I am saying by writing it? The negative effects of cigarettes are taught in elementary school. That is just an objective truth about most people who smoke now. On some level they are choosing an action that at some point after done long enough will kill them. Although through overcoming loneliness & seeking company with other adults. I will survive and I will quit smoking.