God Complex: This is not a gift. It means you were prepared by legal representation by people too dumb to understand the meaning of the words “Child of a Type 1 Diabetic.” I don’t have a gift. I have an Intersex birth defect. I fight bed wetting with the term “Nocturnal” . I also tighten my core when I can by means of yoga. I will be abusing my God complex by acting like an A**hole now.
#AutismAware – Remember if you wait too long to declare your #moralauthority your neurotically typical family will lash out at you. I am Ashton De Roy and I declared #Seizure #Delusions at 26 by legal dictation.
#Autistic Trigger manipulations at home are a game and the motive can be anything from they want to get rid of you to they want to push you to the system. I prepared a legal self defense for all of the above and submitted it to public record as discussed with #Political representation.
I declared my Moral authority in High school like a sane person. Then just went along with all the autism aware conversations. The fact is my family abuses #Psychotic disorders to hide wrongdoing and #ChildAbuse . That is my opinion. It is a personal truth. If my family doesn’t abuse Psychotic disorders. Where did everyone go? #NiceTry you guys are #Transparrent #bigots
I have Seizures and delusions related to my Autism. This is a related link on autism use of ritalin and psychosis.
“Using high doses of methylphenidate has been reported to cause serious complications, such as psychosis, seizure, liver damage, and cardiovascular side effects. Previous studies have suggested that psychotic symptoms may be found following methylphenidate consumption in patients with ADHD.” Google
When I was a kid? My weight got down much too low while using Ritalin. This was possibly how my disorder began. There were also multiple other near death moments growing up related to my autism.
I need this tool to cope with delusions, grieving and accepting health issues. When it is taken away? I feel lost, confused & disengaged. I have studied Green Party of Canada ethics in order to guarantee my right to practice this Indigenous faith.
Intention: With this Blog I am permanently declaring myself a Wiccan. Guaranteeing my right to practice wherever I go and whoever I am with.
“Moral authority is authority premised on principles, or fundamental truths, which are independent of written, or positive, laws. As such, moral authority necessitates the existence of and adherence to truth.
Because truth does not change, the principles of moral authority are immutable or unchangeable, although as applied to individual circumstances the dictates of moral authority for action may vary due to the exigencies of human life.” Wikipedia
Why people won’t declare their moral authority?
Declaring moral authority involves getting stepped on and kicked around a lot if you are autistic or have a brain injury. I have a brain injury & I am autistic. We think of someone like my Cousin Terry who was homeless as a result of wanting to handle things his own way while handling his Huntington’s disease. Your moral authority should be an expression of individuality. (I have never thought of autism as a disability, I thought of it as a type of personality. I think a brain injury is a disability.)
Moral authority is an invitation for your family to show you how corrupt and sadistic they really are. I am talking about Randy Deroy and Tracy Carpenter. However, I am also talking about Dwayne Richardson and Kimberly Richardson.
Not just direct relatives. I was dumped during amnesia while trying to make a declaration of sound mind so that I could continue to control my circumstances by Kaylib Drury. He is still blocking me and abusing me. The fact that we can’t seem to rationalize that during a brain injury is not a time to negotiate circumstances of a relationship is more than dense. It is sheer stupidity. I think under these interpreted circumstances we have to look at Kaylib Drury’s actions for the selfish and harmful actions they were and are.
This is not acceptable at all. The reason we have a world full of adult children who will never claim their moral authority? We have a system ready to abuse them in North America the minute someone decides to be a moral being. It will do so by not acknowledging their preferences, contracts & personal opinions.
So an older generation & existing generation is stepping on each other so hard. That declaring political alliances & even coming out of the closet has become impossible to finish for many never to be adults. What we are creating? A generation of unhealthy god complexes who both don’t trust their family to allow their individuality & at the same time… They are paralyzed by achieving the slightest success.
Take a look at my Morality here. Do you think I had my free speech suppressed?
Declaring your moral authority should not be taken as permission to throw someone to the system. That is what is being done however… I am being left desperate and destitute. I will make sure this doesn’t happen again to other injured relatives.
Okay so guess who was empowered by me seeking mental health treatment when I explicitly didn’t ask for it? It was not me the sexual assault victim who bravely moved on. It was not me the victim of amnesia who can’t count on their family. It was my ex, it was my family and it was my old job.
In this essay I am going to outline the stuff I don’t want to talk about on a usual basis. This way people can understand that mental health is not a 1 size fits all solution. In fact if you look in to my record at Quinte Health where I see a counsellor usually, it actually wasn’t supposed to be the solution at all. Why wasn’t this the solution?
Do you like yourself as you are? No, what has given me the reason to like myself as I am? The fact that I am smart. Yet my Dad still agreed to have me verify my sexual assault in his separation. The fact that every boyfriend I have ever had has taken control or insulted my mental health. Yet I just keep hoping to fall in love. Yep I am the damaged one. Barely functioning 5 ft 9 rape victim Ashton Deroy takes the blame again. I might of scared people including family & even Kaylib Drury. I will take full blame for that. Do they take full blame for what they do? The fact that there is no Multiculturalism in our family so I am sad. The fact that I am a target for argumentation and debate. Or the fact that I require help from family that I do not receive.
Should people be relatively grateful to have me in their lives? This is what makes mental health such a dumb and worthless occupational field. People either demonstrate they appreciate having you around. Or they do what Liam Hennessy did the entire time I dated him and gaslight me, calling me crazy and screwed up! I was actually approached by Liam Hennessy and asked to charge a person he claimed sexually assaulted him. Even though I never had that same experience.
If I didn’t know me? I’d think I was okay. No I wouldn’t think I am okay. I am a gay bash victim, a victim of mental manipulations and a rape victim. If I didn’t know me… I would see me behaving how I do and according to popular opinions. I would think I was and I quote “Still fucked up!” Liam Hennessy in regards to special needs people. (By the way I have never called Liam Hennessy out for abusing me. The rush is exhilarating!”)
Growing up was I given the feeling that I properly deserve to exist? Does your Step brother Shane Fraiser repeating the phrases “Sped!” , “Retard.” & “Kill yourself” count? Sarcasm (Entertainment for stupid people) >> If so I was totally given the right to exist.
The only idea I would agree to traumatic anxiety wise. After gay bash, after rape and after manipulative torture. I need hugs but they aren’t going to be found anymore because Kaylib Drury left and he was the only person I wanted them from. I need to enjoy cake with my friends… Even though I have brutally transitioned by routine so many times I don’t know who they are anymore. I want to enjoy arts & culture with Ashley… I don’t believe in a better future because I have never been shown properly the possibility of one. The proof is in how I got mental help. I was dumped and had all my stuff moved to the Napanee Police. I had seizures in the rain yesterday and still wanted to talk to Kaylib Drury because I missed him.
I get my passive aggressiveness tested even though I said not to because if aggressiveness is triggered I won’t be able to stop it. So I try to be passive and nice hoping that someone will take that for what it is. The fact that I want to learn, love & be cared for. However, I keep getting told somehow… Some way!!! The answer is going to be in seeking psychological help. I am happy to be where I am because I no longer trust the people I am supposed to love.
I have no culture anymore… I have no home… I have no lighter… I have no weed… Why do you think I would choose this help willingly? I have nothing to go back to when I am done. Furthermore I am of the opinion that ODSP is a crutch for families who don’t want to better their financial wellbeing and force independence on self-identified interdependent autistic people with poor self-regulation. This isn’t the help I need. It is the help being forced on me. That is what my mental health professionals told me a long time ago when I self-submitted complex trauma .
Autism Revolution has been an incredible audiobook. So much so I don’t feel right using the domain name anymore. People need to know about this audiobook. Which is why? I sent a paperback to my autistic Step brother.
Purpose: To establish our own unique Graphic Design brand in Greater Napanee Ontario.
Outcome: We are operating an aggressive Social media campaign to protest issues, fix local and franchise businesses. As well as making the community aware of the problems currently facing us.
Because it is weed you denied me my brain medicine. Because it is weed you think it is a non-necessity item. Because it is weed you think I am making up these fits. Because it is weed you denied me my health.
I got Autism + ADHD + Concussion June 8th 2020. Because it was weed I was denied the help I needed. Not wanted help! The needed help so that I didn’t kill my entire personality. I can’t help this now, that identity I was prior to the episode is now dead. Thank you for doing this. I now have to re-create. I am thinking of something a bit more Millennial oriented for my future.
CBD is medicine! I am tired of having this fight. I don’t want an aspirin, an Advil or any other pill. I don’t want THC, I don’t want Morphine or Ativan. I want CBD only! I shouldn’t have to fight for it. I don’t want fix the relationships I broke this time. I just want to move on.
The New Ashton Deroy , restarting as a Witch again.