I was molested – I was molested by my ex step brother & Second cousin Shane Fraiser. Dad didn’t understand by Marrying my mom’s Cousin of a hick family that he automatically was committing abuse.
I was obstructed from obtaining my education – I still found a way.
I was alienated – I wasn’t allowed to have Special Ed friends or overnight guests ever. I grew up constantly lonely. I had a best friend in the Chess club that I wanted to be closer to but I couldn’t because I didn’t want them to be called a “Retard” at my house.
I was subjected to Psychosocial Abuse – Melissa Deroy has BiPolar neurosis and Psychosis. Which put me at odds with constant abuse.
I was put in the middle of a divorce feud I did not care about
Sometimes I can’t tell the difference between love & abuse… All I have ever wanted was just to be fed, socialized and cared for. That is not what I got. Instead I got isolation and a creative writing journal.
If you look in the picture below you will see part of a generation destroyed. I am not kidding!
It is as if my family thinks the entire generation I am in should just quit and live on disability. Which is objectively insane on the face of it!
I have been autism Aware since grade school. Even I could tell back then! Social assistance is no way to live…
Three things they told me to do?
“Don’t worry about going to High School. Just charge your childhood molester.” This was something Mom wanted. Well I don’t want to charge anyone because then people will think I am just some Autistic person who randomly cries “Rape”. Something I demonstrated as Satire with Kaylib Drury.
“Quit working and go on Disability.” Dad said this. I don’t want to quit working… I am in pain & if I quit working I will never have any money for marijuana. I will just live in a constant struggle.
“Just Vote Conservative!” I don’t vote Conservative. I am queer and Autistic. I also saw the Harper Administration fight against gay marriage and marijuana legalization. I am going to go ahead and say no.
Listen the idea that 3/4 kids end up on disability isn’t good. It shouldn’t be celebrated. You are maiming your kids and walking away….
The only good thing about this experience is… I don’t have to ever worry about this happening again.
This is on the record now. I was put in Safe Beds against my will. That is deliberately how I recorded this event.
Why did I do this? I do not want to end up in long term care. Like my great aunt Barb I will fight it until the day I die. I will just not be as nice about it. I intend to be an *** !
Oh the photo above with Ashley & Matt was taken at Canada’s Wonderland. Where Matt wondered? “Why doesn’t Ashton Deroy want to use a disabled pass?” I just don’t Matt Clarke. I successfully integrated. You are asking me “Why don’t you want to opt to regress?” I just don’t.
It is not enough to be god. I need to establish a following. I need people to know the beauties of Wiccan Communism! I need people to know right from wrong by the Mystical dictator’s terms. I will be working on these platforms today.
Because it is weed you denied me my brain medicine. Because it is weed you think it is a non-necessity item. Because it is weed you think I am making up these fits. Because it is weed you denied me my health.
I got Autism + ADHD + Concussion June 8th 2020. Because it was weed I was denied the help I needed. Not wanted help! The needed help so that I didn’t kill my entire personality. I can’t help this now, that identity I was prior to the episode is now dead. Thank you for doing this. I now have to re-create. I am thinking of something a bit more Millennial oriented for my future.
CBD is medicine! I am tired of having this fight. I don’t want an aspirin, an Advil or any other pill. I don’t want THC, I don’t want Morphine or Ativan. I want CBD only! I shouldn’t have to fight for it. I don’t want fix the relationships I broke this time. I just want to move on.
The New Ashton Deroy , restarting as a Witch again.
Motor impairment, such as difficulty walking, tremor, loss of muscle movement, weakness or rigidity – Yes
Trouble swallowing (dysphagia) – Yes
Vision and focusing problems – Yes
Trouble with sense of smell (olfactory abnormalities) – Yes off and on.
Dementia – I keep losing things and buying repeat items.
Suicidal Ideations and Actions
The prevalence of suicidal thoughts.” Concussion and Autism: A Dangerous Mix Autism Citizen.
To make things worse. I feel I have a toxic family.
How I want to be remembered? I want to be remembered for calling people out on their shit. I want to be belligerent, rude and Honest beyond comprehension. My siblings Except with Kaylib. With Kaylib I want him to remember me as Empathetic, sweet and Loving. I want to try and leave him something should this be my last concussion. I am not suicidal… Not that anyone is Suicide Prevention trained.
What I will be doing: Playing games, smoking pot, CBD oil and etc. I will also be going to medical appointments, dealing with my psychotic siblings and trying to be with my friends. Even though they don’t get me lately. I will try it.
Last advice from me as a blogger: Don’t wait like I did. Don’t wait until you are sick to tell your addict brother he a sociopath. Don’t wait until you are sick to tell your sister you resent her getting you kicked out. Don’t wait to tell your Step mom to buzz off with her understanding of your mental health. Don’t wait to tell your Military Aunt you don’t give a shit what her title is she can go Fuck herself for how she treats you. Take it from me… I compromised so much that I don’t even like most of my family anymore.
“They underestimate us! The politicians, the Business people, and the Employers all ****** underestimate us! They think we are all dead beats on Welfare draining the system. We see the News idiots! We know about the Wealth gap, Call center practices of tyranny& a system where elites just totally disconnected from our everyday concerns.
What did we do in return?
We gave up on Social unity, we gave up on education and we gave up on the idea that we need to give our economy in Quinte West some serious reform so that it can be around for decades more to come!
We need to return democracy back to the workers!
“Okay, we are in.” Just like that and next thing you know I am running a website the size of a small Newspaper route out of Quinte West. “There is no Union Presence in Quinte West.” Laugh Laugh Laugh Laugh Laugh
I have to chuckle a bit to that because it is comically hilarious. Somehow the Employers are believing we are low on Workers and that there is no Union Presence. (We are Unionizing in our communities. With our friends, with our loved ones & with our environment. There is a Union forming alright. You are going to have to fight it with some Democracy because the boot of Capitalism isn’t going to do it for you.
I have some ideas on Social Reform. Let’s have a conversation:
If you are a narc in a suit. Here are what your employees are thinking about. That is the risk we take being open to everyone. We definitely get special visits occasionally. Peace bro!
“Why should I be expected to work outside bussing hours?” Anonymous
Again these are all done from in-person conversations. This is part of what needs to be written down in confidence today.
That is worth considering? Without making a living wage. Is it justifiable to expect your employees to have the utility of a vehicle? Then on that note is it a realistic expense? The truth is not always no. If your work contributes no effort to help workers organize carpools. I consider it down right negligent and completely unsustainable.
“My boss belittles my serious concerns in front of everyone.” Anonymous
This is unfortunate. Your boss is attempting to display dominance by taking out either what they perceive as a strong individual or a weak individual. It is a common trait in toxic competitive people. Sadly with efficiency environments, you open space to create a culture of the proven value of Utility. “I got this result so I deserve to be here today.” In Business School I personally felt this was an organizational culture worth talking about.
That is it for the Democratic call center.
I summarize real concerns from real people. Ex call center workers I hope we are being safe. Protesting peacefully and being dignified. Never forget in Communications lays a culture of highly Democratic people.
“Without change to the current Commercial Rent Assistance program, we will sadly lose many LGBTQ+ businesses that are vital to our community. Email Bill Morneau (Bill.Morneau@parl.gc.ca), FordNation (firstname.lastname@example.org) & Suze Morrison (SMorrison-QP@ndp.on.ca) that CECRA needs to be changed to better support small businesses.
It Takes a Village to Save The Village.”
“Small businesses in Canada are extremely important to the local economy. All across this country small businesses are working hard to stay alive. Many of us will have even more struggles to get reopened in the future. Bars and other gathering spots will be some of the last to be able to restart. We need help! The other government programs have had issues. Many of them have been corrected. I ask today that the Provincial and Federal government step up and fix the CECRA program so it will work for the commercial tenants. The Federal government has pwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwut the money aside; give tenants some way to access this help if the landlord won’t. Small businesses are the backbone of this country.” – Christopher Hudspeth, Owner of Pegasus On Church and Chair of the Church Wellesley Business Improvement Area.”