This post will be censored with more ethical language in a bit*** . I do want it to break through though that I take Civility, mental health, and #SuicideAwareness seriously.
Since completing a Business Diploma while looking at Social & Sustainability issues. Then getting trained in CannSell and SmartServe as well as Suicide Prevention. I now believe I can be an ethical friend for someone.
So if you want to talk about mental health. We can talk. Just know I will behave ethically in Conversation. To some people this a calming thing. To have a friend behave a moral guide. I have had multiple moral guides as friends. I do believe it is something we can do for each other that helps to make the world a better place.
Also, shout out to my Grandma. I think mental health dialogues were an idea I got from my Grandma Pat. Anyways I find moral friends to be a calming concept. I always mention my love for some of the Mormon culture in my family. I do think the Mormon religious culture was where I developed some of my Community & moral values. Even if some of it evolved with my academic life.
Email me at Ashtonderoy@gmail.com if you need to talk.
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I am sorry but if it wasn’t for my complete ignorance in perception to Mohawk Political culture I wouldn’t of picked up this Political theory book. Admittedly had I known the contents of this book I would not have bought it. This is going to be less of a quantifiable review and more of an emotional review. Sometimes we flip the script and just get real on this website.
An intimate relationship has me bias to materials: My feelings are that I am glad my boyfriend isn’t a fundamental Native Sovereigntess. In fact, he might be marginalized by Political Native Soverigntests. For those who don’t know Traditional Native sovereignty values would likely reduce my relationship to nothing more than a member and an outsider. / That was very dehumanizing. I was very happy recently when my boyfriend said: “My culture is anime and video games.” Not just because it was a silly statement by a free spirit. It also reminds me that in spite of his cultural heritage he sets his own values and he doesn’t have to choose a culture or values where we will both be marginalized. I’m still just a Socialist and he is probably still deciding what he is.
Will I finish the book? This is one of those times where if I pick up a book I might as well finish it. Not that I am glad of having read it. I am not… Just because if you’ve started to understand some of these issues. It is worth continuing to understand these complex issues. That is my review. If you are a Pluralist Indigenous, mixed indigenous, or of descendence of Loyalist setters this book might make you feel a bit down and even depressed. We identify as a family of Mohawk people & French Loyalist Settlers. Ultimately this is worth knowing.
“I bet on not reccomending the book before I finished reading it. I immediately changed my mind” Ashton Deroy commentary
Sustainable Development goal. For Pluralism to exist with Indigenous people: Page 119 could change my opinion on the book greatly. Especially in looking at things like Blood Quantum in relationship to Indigenous persons and how offensive that is. One thing I definitely care about is being diplomatic in relationship to marginalized people. It also makes me recognize that some people treat the Indian act and Mohawk Culture as more of an unserious novelty. For Pluralism to exist we must respect their traditions and point of view. On page 119 you can see a prime example of two people deciding to deny each other their Indigenous heritage one from the rude position of bureaucracy the other from feelings of marginalization and victimization from being denied rights from their legal Indian status card. My position with my social circle remains if you claim to be indigenous I pay respect to that. However, a position of duty related to potential jobs may put me in a place similar to this. I definitely don’t want to make anyone feel alienated from their heritage and point of view. The respectable thing to do is treat their views as legitimate and develop some respect for their point of view so that you can speak as equals even if not the same. Even if executing duty. I think had considerations of been paid for duty of job position & ethnology of everyone involved. The situation would have gone better.
I repeat, “please don’t compare my world views to your trip on LSD! Just do me that favor.”
I value highly the pursuit of an equal society with values of justice and dignity with cultural plurality I have read books by Democrats, Socialists, Utilitarians. I have learned about the origins of North American Social Reform culture out of New Harmony Indiana. I have praised Tommy Douglas for his work on human rights and the creation of Socialized healthcare. There is a real cultural collective of literature, historical figures, and Philosophical/Economic readings.
When you do what this person did?
Reducing the sum of morality & a values-based conversation with real intellectual values in to “When I took acid I realized what I already knew, we’re all just creatures of earthborn under the sky and will die under the sky.”I lost a great deal of respect for this person. Of all the profound conversations I would hope to have with a fellow intellectual and fellow working-class person. This was not in line with those types of conversations I would hope to be having. Doy I am an atheist too! I just still believe in deterministic principles for guiding one’s actions.
Telling it like it is
You can be an atheist and then still be a nihilist and know that I will call that out as a bad thing. Atheism is not the sum total value of our individual philosophies. If you don’t have the meaning you find it through reading and deep introspection. As a friend, you became someone I view as someone who gets lost in sloppy poorly thought out meaningless relationships with men who have drug issues.
As a person, you have become paranoid (obviously these drugs don’t agree with you and are probably illegal. I am not a police officer) As a student you’ve been reduced to nothing but a pointless party person who won’t buckle down & focus. Acid & LSD was considered a threat to cultural sanity for a reason. People during use feel like they have been enlightened. People from every faith and atheism thing they get it all figured out just from an intense trip! You haven’t woke my friends.
“LSD influences serotonin receptors in the brain. Serotonin is a neurotransmitter that plays a role in every part of your body, from your mood and emotions to your motor skills and body temperature. According to a 2016 study, LSD also causes changes in the brain’s blood flow and electrical activity.” Google
( This just in you are playing dangerous games with your mental health by taking acid and not consulting a physician about medicinal options or even negative health effects.)
Why I think her ex left her after 4 years based on an outsider observation? I think he lost respect for her. First of all, she is an atheist like me but let us face facts that on its own is a bleak philosophy. She was materialistic. From the prior conversations, she stated she didn’t believe his passion for world history would translate into a wealth payable skill. She was passionless and filled with deeply flawed values that go beyond practical and into bleak. The tide of her impulses just steer her to prospects of marrying for wealth, pushing desperately non-consensual commitment & her unaddressed preference for interdependence in her social culture means she is miserable by the way she steers herself. (Quite frankly I am comfortable labeling someone a gold digger in the face of the belligerent indifference to pursuits of passion in relation to education.)
Friendship Summary: This relationship was exhausting and I honestly fear her inability to grow will surpass my ability to forgive our culture clash. As a gay man & Socialist, I value being a confidant to many friends who feel like my sisters. As an autistic person who became higher functioning, I scoff at her lacking determinism to become smarter, her lacking passion for her work & inability to see why she might be offputting to men who crave emotional connections. She is one of the least self-actualized people I have ever met. She is reducing herself to a party girl wearing an “intellectual” mask. She is heartless wearing a mask of compassion & lastly she is passionless posing as a passionate person the result is total and completely fraudulent behavior, even if not a case of legal misrepresentation. You felt ripped off as a friend hoping for a deeper interpersonal relationship.
“I feel exhausted by this but it was worth journalling.”
Disclaimer: These reviews have a purpose towards steering Cannabis consumers towards safe products. My Primary provider of Cannabis products is Aphria. However since I am an Indigenous mixed family consuming goods from the rez is apart of my culture. We are a Mohawk & French Canadian family. Please respect our culture.
Ashton Deroy Writes: (This is a conversational blog believed to be true by the writer. This is not intended to harm those involved. Rather the intention is to warn of unstable housing rental practices in Kingston Ontario. I would like this blog to be the medium that announces an unstable environment. For the purposes of this blog I use a fake name for Wren as we had 0 contracts. Since it is a fake name it could almost be like I was talking about a fake person… I wish…)
I need to issue a final statement with the intention of dissolving a certain solidarity project I was going to be apart of. For the purposes of this article, I will use a fake name rather than the actual first name which I did acquire. I will also avoid putting this person in the hot seat. She may be of a protected status. She also may not be…
Previously referred to as “disabled female tenant”. This post is meant to address Wren. (I have always wanted to point out a Wren is a bird lol) What happened here? I’ve just noticed she can lean into repetitive neurotic behavior and when I attempted to finally say something… She said, “Leave me alone!”
First of all Wren, I stand by what I said. You fixate on “Qualified professionals” bordering on the neurotic. In fact, I’d say that you dwelled on it so often that it seems like you dysfunctionally stopped living your life. I know you have been through something difficult that I won’t dignify even sharing with my readers. However, it doesn’t justify a bias to authority to an obsessive degree. You have to get along with your friends, the people you live with and you have to on a larger scale cooperate with those within your community (Not exclusive to “Qualified professionals”) Authority Bias, click here to learn more.
Okay, so I always kept a level head while I knew her. I had thought “Okay she is qwerky but she is disabled also.” You see her quickly going from an attempt to get my attention to diverting the topic altogether. What does this mean? Well for you truth seekers who utilize the Socratic method. I asked questions she diverted them. The truth would objectively lay within the pattern of the conversation. This is unusual and I would argue dishonest. The most practical thing I can think of is her wanting my attention for some reason. At this time I am in self-isolation and not rushing out to see her when she asks.
The problem is: She already burned my bridge. I was keeping in touch with her to ask stuff like should we set up a website to warn people about this rental? When you leave can I help you file a Landlord-Tenant board claim? I also worry she may have fed me misinformation and this boundary was set up so that I could not expose the misinformation.
Scenarios I’ve considered (not proven true, but pure speculation for your attention):
Wren might be somehow involved with how that house operates. As crazy of an idea that seems. Maybe she obnoxiously overshares to chase people out. That way Jamie Macari pockets rental deposits.
Wren might have psychosis. I mean this with no malicious intent. One of my sisters has it and it is serious. It would mean that some of what she said to me… She didn’t have the mental capacity to make those actual claims.
Wren could be making up stuff for attention & even pity.
Out of all of the possible scenarios the bottom 2 I consider the most likely.
Unfortunately because of the text message on April 3rd 2020. I have to go say this. I have to say I am a gay male with autism who has never had sex with a cisgender woman as of 2020-04-17. I have mostly been attracted to guys since I was 13-14 years old. I have to come out and say she might make up stuff about me in order to gain Social attention. Sadly because a number of times I caught Wren lying to me outright. I broke April 3rd 2020 I can’t just resume action on the logic “You said leave me alone. I am going to go now and not saying anything on the record.” No no… You already lied about me and I am quite upset and concerned as a result.
I can’t take this post down. Due to the insane nature of the interpersonal relationships and social interactions at 544 Victoria Street Kingston Ontario. I have every reason to believe as a public person I am safer to engage my audience with this finale post.
Also what I said? It was not out of line. You have an authority bias that is quite neurotic. You can’t fix your situation effectively and efficiently the way you go about it. Finally, yes you annoyed me. The problem is… When you were annoying me? Morally the right thing to do was to be patient and understanding. Wren would often repeat “Now that I can talk to qualified people after never haven being allowed to because I wasn’t considered a person.” Referring to a presumably difficult past. She made me feel overwhelmed. Quite frankly I was worried she was going to either burn out and explode metaphorically. Or I was worried she was going to get herself kicked out and become homeless by not only insisting on living in the house, but also choosing to do it in a way that was only on her terms. (That not being the custom for cooperative housing. Even now I have to live in a way where my roommates can tolerate me.)
That moral obligation I felt to you ended when you made things up about me and during other lies I caught you in that I believe harmed me.
To: Possible authorities
No this is not going down off of my site. As far as I am concerned my dealings with Kingston Police have been unsatisfactory in resolving this issue. For all I know it could continue to put low-income renters in Kingston Ontario in danger. I keep asking myself, “What would you of liked to know before moving in to the home?” Whatever the answer to that is it needs to be considered.
What I would like to know about this place if I was a renter?
) They ban overnight guests – This forces a bit too much intimacy between the tenants.
) They won’t leave each other alone – I felt many times as though I was separating children from fighting. Prior to moving in Jamie said this would be a more adult living situation than I was used to. I would later state and I quote “You guys are much more childish than anybody I lived within College housing.”
) It is an unstable collective living arrangement – Jamie Macari is said to have Mercury poisoning affecting his mental health status. Wren has undisclosed issues which I was allowed to be subjected to but not allowed to understand in direct ways.
They overshare – To the point where household hangouts and meetings felt like therapy sessions. I only have a Community College background and many times I was the smartest person there.
They are not proactive about separating & getting healthy – Despite the fact this housing arrangement is very unhealthy and I suspect will remain unhealthy. Wren isn’t in a hurry to leave & no one in her network of “qualified professionals” is in a hurry to get her anywhere. It will take attrition or severe intervention to break the dysfunction in this house.
You probably won’t get your money back if they rent out after you leave- I lost a lot of money & more importantly my time living in this place. Writing these Blog posts is kind of a gift to myself to make sure I have something in exchange for all of the money I lost. (I know Wren is possibly not involved in that.) However, I have every right to speak with alarm about her impacts on the environment.
Weird religious elements – I have overheard loud religious arguments in that house. It seems Jamie Macari is devoted to whatever he practices & eventually he will make you aware of it and it will be your problem. An ex Wrestler who knew Jamie describes him as never being the same since returning allegedly from Uganda.
Wren gives fake information – For all purposes I didn’t harm Wren in any way. She gave me a fake name, I used the fake name. I may as well of wrote about an imaginary person. Something has happened where she does this I guess. I think it is a bit offputting and worthy of knowing before going there.
Lies on top of lies – By the end of this socially manipulative experiment that tests all natural human boundaries. With Jamie’s Fallacy logic and Wren’s mysterious but alarming past. If you took the time to listen… You won’t know what is real anymore. I am still scratching my head because everything was so convoluted and I was also high in an effort to remember as little as possible.
2 Property Management companies have a presence at one address.
Wren thinks people are out to interfere with her professional help – I am not even ruling out that Jamie Macari was interfering allegedly. However, I have pointed out to her fairly. That her excessive focus on “Qualified professionals” mixed with her paranoia of others interfering is a neurotic combination. I said she could consider going to the psychiatric ward where others wouldn’t dream to intervene in her getting help from “Qualified professionals”.
Requirements I met:
I did not use your real name Wren. I know that you gave me a fake name when we met.
I did not write this article without cause. I caught you breaking one of my boundaries which is not to make up stuff about my interpersonal dealings.
The nature of your seemingly neurotic behavior jeopardizes the validity of much of what I was supposed to know to this point.
I have hidden any contact information. You are only “Wren”. Yes, there is an address but that is for public safety reasons. You & Jamie according to actual “qualified people” I’ve talked to, “Have some alarming qualities which together make that house a powder keg of dysfunction. It would be better for everyone to dissolve this living arrangement. To not blow the whistle would be an act of negligence and put others at risk.”
I will not take this down… Wren I blocked you on GMAIL & SMS because I don’t even want you to bother asking me, Please & thank you. As I have pointed out some of what you have said to me on the record is wildly inappropriate and I need to beat you to any possible public claims. I consider this Public knowledge & even would go as far to say this as a home rental version of the workplace psychosocial hazard qualifies as something to call to public attention to. At this time I don’t speak apart of a collective, rather this is me analyzing the home objectively.
544 Victoria St, Kingston Ontario. The Weird communal living arrangement.– I don’t think they run the Air B&B anymore but it was weird that we all lived together cooperatively but we also had a business in there. Yet none of us could say “No I don’t support you running the air B&B. Furthermore Jamie portrayed himself as apart of a Property Management company which automatically invalidates your right to do this.
Ashton Deroy Writes: I completed Suicide Prevention training as a definable feature of my care for my communities. Friends, family & old colleagues. Who primarily follow my blog on my Autism and ideas for Social Democracy.
One thing I think needs to be a feature of our new Social Democratic values is Suicide Prevention training. We need to be ready to engage in this topic and connect people to resources.
Over my time doing blog projects & Advertising sales through Facebook. It is sad to say I haven’t handled the unexpected event of someone’s expressed suicidal ideations. Now I am trained & prepared to help in preventing a Suicide
For the nature of moral sense in challenges that require moral character. If Ashton Deroy is reading this he must re-dedicate to Wicca, Coffee at 8:00a.m. commit to tea times 12:00pm. & 3:00pm. This contains particular wording to establish a social culture in conversation. To pitch Business plans you must design Tradition Wicca Spiritualist Style Graphic Design proposals otherwise proposals will be discarded as unlicensed and copyright works. This is a hidden moral contract of the website to prevent the unnecessary firing cruelties of Fiverr Freelances. Ashton Deroy has a Special Education in Elementary School in High School. They are autism aware and capable of casting moral intent. They are also capable of method acting which in combination with impulse is an accessory circumstance in defining loss of moral character. This is an Autism Aware Spell that can be summoned to reboot Ashton. To Reboot moral character Mention Utilitarianism, Economics, and Wicca in that order. You will re-awake the merchant. Ashton Deroy to Graphic Design and Sales Promotion with their advertising diploma. It also has customer excellence training. This moral character can be awoken with spoken auditory instructional spells.
Ashton Deroy Writes: It appears Covid19 is only intensifying talks of Socialism and what we do and don’t want for it. What are our new rules? What do they mean for us? How is Socialism taking the higher social grounds during this pandemic?
Socialism is a system of governance that happens either by necessity or by agitation. After all it is said that after World War 2 Socialism rebuilt the United Kingdom. While in another example in the case of Cuba the people got tired of Western democracy and capitalism. The people revolted and overthrew it!
Regardless Socialism is here right now. What are the the new rules & features? Well it seems like one feature society does not want to put down is Universal Basic income. It seems like that will have to find a place in whatever Social system is set up in place of our current system. There is just an overall agreement that Pandemic’s show a crucial time for the use of a Universal Basic Income. Especially in cases of turning people away from certain irresponsible employers still operating their infectious office places of work during this time. I am definitely talking about call centers.
What does Universal Basic Income mean for us? It means reconsidering what work we think is worth doing at this time. One might argue that to flatten the curve in relation to Covid19. We may want to consider buying out the participation of unskilled laborers in the economy so that we can ease the burden felt by healthcare later. I also believe after we could return to a labor economy that would be the ideal in the long run though.
We also need to look at improving the treatment of the elderly. This includes not unnecessarily avoiding elderly relatives who may be dependent on the help of others. Don’t get me wrong. This is an incredibly complex time where we have to consider whether a cold we have could possibly kill our grandparents. However according to people working in healthcare and finance a lot the elderly go abandoned in times of mass pandemic. Which in the long run is not going to help their overall well-being.
The Corona-virus is statistically devastating because it does have the potential to be the sickness to wipe out many of our older relatives. On the other hand sometimes you have to weigh infection versus how safe an elderly person can practically take care of themselves on their own. We need to come up with solutions so that the elderly don’t feel abandoned at this time. This may include the feature in looking at the cost of socialized home care for older people in the communities.
Why Socialism is on the higher moral ground? Socialism asks “What are our obligations to each other?” Where as Capitalism naturally asks, “what are our obligations to ourselves?” We have a responsibility to a collective at this point in time. If you have the chance put down your self interests and be strategic in your collectives.
Ashton Deroy writes: Imagine a place with 5 bedrooms rooms, 1 living room, 1 kitchen and 1 bathroom. Now imagine living there with 3 other full time tenants and also 2 possible guests for an Air B&B or 1 other part time tenant. Now imagine the 2 months of headaches that follows. It is an environment of rotating bodies, too much closeness & the flashing thought of “Hey who is that random person?”
To perceive a place such as this is to perceive a very fast approaching headache. It is establishing a goal for 3 people who are complete strangers to also live in a harmony of arbitrary rules & regulations. Needless to say what ever Jango Property Management is trying to do. It is psychotically unstable with such a small shared communal living environment.
Lets face it all that plus the small space, lack of appropriate boundaries & the fact truth be told the 3 full time tenants had huge personalities was a track guaranteed for disaster. In fact you could easily write a book filled with conflicts to fill it. Like that book this house was filled with disaster scenarios. We had constant conflict. Also an entire lack of normalcy. There is something inherently about the top description paragraph I used that seems either like it is all part of some psychotic math question or a plan for dystopic future communal homes.
Facts are facts. Not everyone in the home needs a social life. However some people really should get them. Even if it means exhausting the effects & negative symptoms of over night guests. It took a little bit realize that there were only two possible reasons for a home to act under social contracts in this manner. This is either some kind of religious cult house. Or there are some serious lacking interpersonal Social Skills in this house that prevent people from forming adult interpersonal relationships. As usual the answer was a bit of both.
To people who read this blog… I am getting kind of tired of being exposed to uncivilized types who don’t live by a kindness first policy. They just expect people to help in an Air B&B without any special access to utility of the home. Just an implied expectation of being put to work for someone else’s interests. Whatever this is? It must be a plan to worsen the exploitation existing comfortably in Capitalism already. Or in other words?
A literal scam. Yep I compromised on the fact I am not supposed to live in a place that bans me from having overnight guests if I pay rent. (This is why I look at places with my brother from now on.) The idea is to pay rent and have some independence. Not to pay rent and live romantically abstinent!
What happened to me? From living in a cool stoner house in Belleville Ontario with actual cool people. To living in a Communal Air B&B on a street where human beings will literally sometimes take shits on. Yes I am saying this set up is dirty, gross & weird is simply an understatement. Also I think it is also driven me crazy renting the room across from this…
Not ruling this out: The construction project across the road has been waking me up at the crack of dawn for quite some time. I will say a lot of my time in this place has made me question if my sanity is slipping between my fingers. Lets just bare in mind most days I wake up to bad dreams of chainsaws masquerading as the construction noises across the road. There is a very real possibility that this has played a huge role in my loss of sanity at this address. Just saying, do not rule it out!
Positive notes to self for the way out and moving forward. I quit smoking tobacco again although it seems like a good way to tell if I am in my personal hell to an outsider is for them to just see me with a cigarette. If Ashton Deroy is holding a tobacco cigarette you can literally assume I am saying, “Fuck it I’d rather be dead.” When have I ever hidden that? What am I afraid I am saying by writing it? The negative effects of cigarettes are taught in elementary school. That is just an objective truth about most people who smoke now. On some level they are choosing an action that at some point after done long enough will kill them. Although through overcoming loneliness & seeking company with other adults. I will survive and I will quit smoking.