I have Seizures and delusions related to my Autism. This is a related link on autism use of ritalin and psychosis.
“Using high doses of methylphenidate has been reported to cause serious complications, such as psychosis, seizure, liver damage, and cardiovascular side effects. Previous studies have suggested that psychotic symptoms may be found following methylphenidate consumption in patients with ADHD.” Google
When I was a kid? My weight got down much too low while using Ritalin. This was possibly how my disorder began. There were also multiple other near death moments growing up related to my autism.
I need this tool to cope with delusions, grieving and accepting health issues. When it is taken away? I feel lost, confused & disengaged. I have studied Green Party of Canada ethics in order to guarantee my right to practice this Indigenous faith.
Intention: With this Blog I am permanently declaring myself a Wiccan. Guaranteeing my right to practice wherever I go and whoever I am with.
I got an OPP escort to the restaurant because this was an emergency!!! Bob made sure to read me the riot act at 1:15p.m. 2020-07-07 while I was having a seizure. He denied me accessibility seating while I waited for my food as a paying Tim Hortons Customer. Bob hates the disabled and this is this restaurant’s first real hate crime against an autistic person with reflex seizure! I am a Green Socialist and Autistic lives Matter!
No matter how much certain families try. They will never achieve Autism Awareness. Why do I say this? Well as an Autistic person with Non-voting, non-active and Autism oblivious parents. I feel I have suffered an undue hardship.
I get more pressure for independence than I do help for survival. That is not autism awareness. It is a state of autism delusion that some families have. For example with my brother Matt when they sent him to the army. Most Autistic people should not be posted in Cold Lake Alberta where they submit to social isolation because it leads to drastic regression.
We can not pretend to be sophisticated about autism. While at the same time neglecting our community issues as soon as a pandemic is around. This is how I failed another living situation! This is also part of why Matt continues to live a very unfulfilling life. Some autistic people will never achieve full independence. In which case the idea of it must be dismissed.
I love my step Mom Tracy. Sometimes though she deserves an award for Autism oblivious. Why on earth did you think your son was a good fit for the army? I have always thought that many families have some kind of severe delusional detachment to suggest this solution.
The Pressure also arises from unfair expectations of independence and the idea for example that I as an autistic person can get my healthcare wherever I am. I can not… I need specific healthcare professionals under specific terms. Today my Dad showed a complete disregard for that in not printing my Medical Directive for the clinic.
Why my step mom isn’t allowed to do autism aware with me and she should probably stop all together? I think she uses it more as a leash than as a tool. I apparently surpass her autism awareness for miles. The fact that I knew how to treat autism + concussion shows me Matt must of had a hard childhood. Give your damn son some CBD when he goes off woman!
Let’s face it. The way my parents manage us. I have to go in alone if I go in by Autism Aware standards. There is just no way to make that livable. On top of that my Dad is either still considering what I am saying or ignoring it all together. For that I am just at the point where if I am ignored I will treat myself but I will give up on family unity. I am way more interested in the early commitment stages of my 2 year relationship showing themselves .This doesn’t mean I wasn’t Autism aware since 10. I am saying in regards to my family it doesn’t make a difference. They are just expecting me to act “normal”. Which I find? Just terribly pathetic.
“Je suis fière d’avoir aider des centaines de famille à se réfugier au Canada. Certains étaient nés apatrides et n’avaient jamais été voulu nulle part ailleurs. Nous devons toujours garder les frontières canadiennes ouvertes aux personnes qui se sauvent de la persécution et qui demandent la protectection permanente. #journéeduréfugié .”
#refugeeday I am proud to have been able to give hundreds of families the chance to come to #canada. Some were born stateless and had no where else to go. We need to keep our borders open to welcome those who are fleeing persecution and who need permanent protect.
Ashton Deroy Writes: Plain and simple the reason Anti-Communist movements make me nervous… You psychotic blindly angry types including people who sometimes go in to power go after the Socialists/Social Democrats under the umbrella of “They are the same thing!” No we are not! My culture originates with Socialist experiments originating in 1825 a cited part of Wikipedia confirms. Much of the influence to our Socialist Culture also comes from the 1960s.
I took American history in High School at Trenton High which is where I first learned about these Societies. I wouldn’t truly learn about Communism until my last year of college. At which point I was horrified and I didn’t really recognize it in relation to my movement. This wasn’t counterculture… It was was a repugnant revolution followed by regressive economic policies. I used The Great Courses Plus to begin learning Communist Economic history.
Do you see how fundamentally wrong it is to compare a North American Socialist who valued Slave liberation to Soviet Communists who created horrific conditions for their people?
1947-1957 – The Dawn of McCarthyism which leads to a pointless purge of Socialist Culture because he viewed Socialism as a synonym to Communism. They are not the same…. They are fundamentally different. One the state owns the individuals of the community. The other the community votes on the actions of their Community in relation to the Economy.
Ashton Deroy Writes: (This is a conversational blog believed to be true by the writer. This is not intended to harm those involved. Rather the intention is to warn of unstable housing rental practices in Kingston Ontario. I would like this blog to be the medium that announces an unstable environment. For the purposes of this blog I use a fake name for Wren as we had 0 contracts. Since it is a fake name it could almost be like I was talking about a fake person… I wish…)
I need to issue a final statement with the intention of dissolving a certain solidarity project I was going to be apart of. For the purposes of this article, I will use a fake name rather than the actual first name which I did acquire. I will also avoid putting this person in the hot seat. She may be of a protected status. She also may not be…
Previously referred to as “disabled female tenant”. This post is meant to address Wren. (I have always wanted to point out a Wren is a bird lol) What happened here? I’ve just noticed she can lean into repetitive neurotic behavior and when I attempted to finally say something… She said, “Leave me alone!”
First of all Wren, I stand by what I said. You fixate on “Qualified professionals” bordering on the neurotic. In fact, I’d say that you dwelled on it so often that it seems like you dysfunctionally stopped living your life. I know you have been through something difficult that I won’t dignify even sharing with my readers. However, it doesn’t justify a bias to authority to an obsessive degree. You have to get along with your friends, the people you live with and you have to on a larger scale cooperate with those within your community (Not exclusive to “Qualified professionals”) Authority Bias, click here to learn more.
Okay, so I always kept a level head while I knew her. I had thought “Okay she is qwerky but she is disabled also.” You see her quickly going from an attempt to get my attention to diverting the topic altogether. What does this mean? Well for you truth seekers who utilize the Socratic method. I asked questions she diverted them. The truth would objectively lay within the pattern of the conversation. This is unusual and I would argue dishonest. The most practical thing I can think of is her wanting my attention for some reason. At this time I am in self-isolation and not rushing out to see her when she asks.
The problem is: She already burned my bridge. I was keeping in touch with her to ask stuff like should we set up a website to warn people about this rental? When you leave can I help you file a Landlord-Tenant board claim? I also worry she may have fed me misinformation and this boundary was set up so that I could not expose the misinformation.
Scenarios I’ve considered (not proven true, but pure speculation for your attention):
Wren might be somehow involved with how that house operates. As crazy of an idea that seems. Maybe she obnoxiously overshares to chase people out. That way Jamie Macari pockets rental deposits.
Wren might have psychosis. I mean this with no malicious intent. One of my sisters has it and it is serious. It would mean that some of what she said to me… She didn’t have the mental capacity to make those actual claims.
Wren could be making up stuff for attention & even pity.
Out of all of the possible scenarios the bottom 2 I consider the most likely.
Unfortunately because of the text message on April 3rd 2020. I have to go say this. I have to say I am a gay male with autism who has never had sex with a cisgender woman as of 2020-04-17. I have mostly been attracted to guys since I was 13-14 years old. I have to come out and say she might make up stuff about me in order to gain Social attention. Sadly because a number of times I caught Wren lying to me outright. I broke April 3rd 2020 I can’t just resume action on the logic “You said leave me alone. I am going to go now and not saying anything on the record.” No no… You already lied about me and I am quite upset and concerned as a result.
I can’t take this post down. Due to the insane nature of the interpersonal relationships and social interactions at 544 Victoria Street Kingston Ontario. I have every reason to believe as a public person I am safer to engage my audience with this finale post.
Also what I said? It was not out of line. You have an authority bias that is quite neurotic. You can’t fix your situation effectively and efficiently the way you go about it. Finally, yes you annoyed me. The problem is… When you were annoying me? Morally the right thing to do was to be patient and understanding. Wren would often repeat “Now that I can talk to qualified people after never haven being allowed to because I wasn’t considered a person.” Referring to a presumably difficult past. She made me feel overwhelmed. Quite frankly I was worried she was going to either burn out and explode metaphorically. Or I was worried she was going to get herself kicked out and become homeless by not only insisting on living in the house, but also choosing to do it in a way that was only on her terms. (That not being the custom for cooperative housing. Even now I have to live in a way where my roommates can tolerate me.)
That moral obligation I felt to you ended when you made things up about me and during other lies I caught you in that I believe harmed me.
To: Possible authorities
No this is not going down off of my site. As far as I am concerned my dealings with Kingston Police have been unsatisfactory in resolving this issue. For all I know it could continue to put low-income renters in Kingston Ontario in danger. I keep asking myself, “What would you of liked to know before moving in to the home?” Whatever the answer to that is it needs to be considered.
What I would like to know about this place if I was a renter?
) They ban overnight guests – This forces a bit too much intimacy between the tenants.
) They won’t leave each other alone – I felt many times as though I was separating children from fighting. Prior to moving in Jamie said this would be a more adult living situation than I was used to. I would later state and I quote “You guys are much more childish than anybody I lived within College housing.”
) It is an unstable collective living arrangement – Jamie Macari is said to have Mercury poisoning affecting his mental health status. Wren has undisclosed issues which I was allowed to be subjected to but not allowed to understand in direct ways.
They overshare – To the point where household hangouts and meetings felt like therapy sessions. I only have a Community College background and many times I was the smartest person there.
They are not proactive about separating & getting healthy – Despite the fact this housing arrangement is very unhealthy and I suspect will remain unhealthy. Wren isn’t in a hurry to leave & no one in her network of “qualified professionals” is in a hurry to get her anywhere. It will take attrition or severe intervention to break the dysfunction in this house.
You probably won’t get your money back if they rent out after you leave- I lost a lot of money & more importantly my time living in this place. Writing these Blog posts is kind of a gift to myself to make sure I have something in exchange for all of the money I lost. (I know Wren is possibly not involved in that.) However, I have every right to speak with alarm about her impacts on the environment.
Weird religious elements – I have overheard loud religious arguments in that house. It seems Jamie Macari is devoted to whatever he practices & eventually he will make you aware of it and it will be your problem. An ex Wrestler who knew Jamie describes him as never being the same since returning allegedly from Uganda.
Wren gives fake information – For all purposes I didn’t harm Wren in any way. She gave me a fake name, I used the fake name. I may as well of wrote about an imaginary person. Something has happened where she does this I guess. I think it is a bit offputting and worthy of knowing before going there.
Lies on top of lies – By the end of this socially manipulative experiment that tests all natural human boundaries. With Jamie’s Fallacy logic and Wren’s mysterious but alarming past. If you took the time to listen… You won’t know what is real anymore. I am still scratching my head because everything was so convoluted and I was also high in an effort to remember as little as possible.
2 Property Management companies have a presence at one address.
Wren thinks people are out to interfere with her professional help – I am not even ruling out that Jamie Macari was interfering allegedly. However, I have pointed out to her fairly. That her excessive focus on “Qualified professionals” mixed with her paranoia of others interfering is a neurotic combination. I said she could consider going to the psychiatric ward where others wouldn’t dream to intervene in her getting help from “Qualified professionals”.
Requirements I met:
I did not use your real name Wren. I know that you gave me a fake name when we met.
I did not write this article without cause. I caught you breaking one of my boundaries which is not to make up stuff about my interpersonal dealings.
The nature of your seemingly neurotic behavior jeopardizes the validity of much of what I was supposed to know to this point.
I have hidden any contact information. You are only “Wren”. Yes, there is an address but that is for public safety reasons. You & Jamie according to actual “qualified people” I’ve talked to, “Have some alarming qualities which together make that house a powder keg of dysfunction. It would be better for everyone to dissolve this living arrangement. To not blow the whistle would be an act of negligence and put others at risk.”
I will not take this down… Wren I blocked you on GMAIL & SMS because I don’t even want you to bother asking me, Please & thank you. As I have pointed out some of what you have said to me on the record is wildly inappropriate and I need to beat you to any possible public claims. I consider this Public knowledge & even would go as far to say this as a home rental version of the workplace psychosocial hazard qualifies as something to call to public attention to. At this time I don’t speak apart of a collective, rather this is me analyzing the home objectively.
544 Victoria St, Kingston Ontario. The Weird communal living arrangement.– I don’t think they run the Air B&B anymore but it was weird that we all lived together cooperatively but we also had a business in there. Yet none of us could say “No I don’t support you running the air B&B. Furthermore Jamie portrayed himself as apart of a Property Management company which automatically invalidates your right to do this.
Ashton Deroy Writes: I am not kidding when I say I hold these two achievements in the same regard. My Community College Business Diploma & my CannSell achievement certificate. I have legitimately wanted to work in the Marijuana Market ever since I first went to college in 2012. Now it is something that is actually achievable and I am very excited.
I think seeing these two things together just makes me realize I have been able to combine two very different sides of myself successfully. The professional deterministic side that got myself to learn finance, Supply Chains & Statistics. Then there is the Hippie who knows about the history of Cannabis, All about Socialism & bases their modern style blogging on the old works of Social Democrats of the past. Whether I am a hippie or a Business person, I am just proud of the fact I was able to put these two achievements side by side and see a broader image of myself.
About the AGCO CannSell Course?
You can click the image of the website if you want to take it yourself. What you should know? The course is $70 & it takes 5 hours to complete. I kind of thought it was cool though. I have been studying marijuana for some time. I was still able to learn about Canada’s legal history with Marijuana & about recent cases of cannabis intoxication and driving.
As a vanity thing. I actually think if you are a huge cannabis nerd like me. You should get a CannSell Certificate. I can’t see any reason why not? Like it is kind of a verification that I take my passion for recreational marijuana seriously. Plus if you have studied marijuana as much as me. You will probably pass the test easy as well.
This is a section for my resume here on the blog. I just think if I am mentioning my achievements. I should probably post a resume to. This blog is supposed to help with generating career leads.
Try some cardiovascular exercise. These workouts help me keep sane while in isolation. I actually have a small cough myself. However, sometimes I find a mini martial arts workout can be good for a body that spends too long in bed. Also moving once every few hours helps improves your circulation which is great for pain reduction.
This is a 5 part workout I purchased on Google Play. I use it to re-align my chi. I also find mixing martial arts workouts effective with T’ai chi because I learn to move my hands more fluidly. Also it improves your reflexes and stance.
Now T’ai Chi does not look like much. I should warn you, it hurts like crazy! Like as much as Pilates hurt. T’ai Chi hurt about the same. No pain no grain & I know there will be flexibility improvements over time.
Ashton Deroy writes: If you think you can love me while voting Progressive Conservative you are wrong. For a long time me & my brother have viewed this as a personal attack on us and I think it is time I become transparent. I don’t care if you hate Trudeau and think this is the best way out! If we don’t change the treatment of workers in our own country I will die.
Why will I die? I am entirely income dependent. If I go without a job I am going to sink faster than I will ever swim. If I take a job that doesn’t allow me to take care of myself properly I could have a heart attack! Do I have your attention yet?
As I have said prior. It is too late to join the army for me. I have been in the wrong shape for it, for years! I have too much debt to suddenly do a trade & I tried starting a business and a lack of understanding for my product (website administration and setup) was a huge barrier.
So this is it! I need to work, I need job security and I need schedule stability. Or I will die. Now is a time more than ever where you need to vote for parties that support the progression of workers’ rights. Now is the time where we must alienate the destructive ideals of the Conservative party and their needless attacks on Canadian workers. Conservatives took away from us and you have to pay for that!
As a comparative look at the parties. Here is my comparative analysis of parties that will help with my quality of living. This is important if you believe you are 100% supportive of me, you have to consider your vote. Please take a look at these parties to determine the best spot to support me and people like me.
We also need to focus more on living wage. It is not going to be a $14 an hour job to do the trick. After I finish school in order to get ahead I now need to earn a minimum of $20 an hour to be able to be comfortable and pay my debts. The other option is I die. I can’t defer OSAP payments and I can’t go without food.
This is exhausting, 10 years of the Conservatives federally. Now a Provincial government that attacks the lowest class of people is killing me! I do not want to double down on Doug Ford, I do not want to face peril in a government that does not create solutions. They only create tax breaks. When the country is facing crisis? The retraction plan of the Conservatives have never made sense. Their expansionary plans are actually somehow worse. Especially in how they focus on useless things such as tourism, gambling & outside investments. We don’t need a government that is absent at the wheel. We need a government with control. Let me remind you to conclude that Conservative right wing ideologies are destroying the effective governance of U.K. & the USA. Time to put the Conservative playbook to bed people!
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